MP3 Jacquelene Dyles Peters - Intimacy
Contemporary Gospel Jazz
12 MP3 Songs
GOSPEL: Contemporary Gospel, JAZZ: Smooth Jazz
I have been brought up in church all my life. I came from a long line of gospel singers. I have always had a passion for God. I can''t take any credit for that, it was in me as a small child. I can remember standing in front of a mirror with a hair brush in my hand using the hair brush as a microphone. Looking at myself in the mirror, holding the microphone (hair brush) and singing my heart out. I can remember having church in my Mom''s garage with all the kids in the neighborhood telling them they needed God! I guess I was the John The Baptist in my neighborhood.
I am the oldest of six girls and was raised by a single parent--my mother. I had more responsibility because I was the oldest. I felt sorry for my Mom. Many days I saw her cry. But, she always tried to keep it from us. She made bad choices in men. Seeing her hurt, I always wanted to be loved by a man. Growing up I would pray to God that He would send me a man that loved me more than he loved himself. Wanting for a man that would be into me. But, it was always the other way around.
Seeing all the hurt my Mom went through. Man after man lied to her. How lonely she was year after year, I didn''t want to be like her. But, I found myself also making bad choices and looking for love in all the wrong places. I used to think there was something wrong with me but, now I see that I didn''t wait on God. He had the perfect plan for my life. I was always trying to help Him out. Not knowing He wanted to be in every aspect of my life, even my relationships. But, it took my heart being broken in a thousand pieces and being alone with the burden of raising my children alone. In my wildest dreams, I never thought my life would have turned out so ugly and so lonely.
After I exhausted everything I could do on my own, I found myself having to rely solely on God to take the enormous hurt away that burdened my heart beyond any words I could describe. That is when I began to find out I had someone who really did love me!
I began to write songs from my heart even as I hurt. Many times I felt like if I spoke my heart would come out of my mouth. The hurt was so deep inside. I felt my heart was about to burst wide open day after day. I even thought about ending this pain by just driving off the road one day. Only God kept me from going crazy.
The songs that God gave me ministered to me. I begin to sing them directly to Him. Not knowing that by singing directly to Him started my healing process. Hurting but holding on to a dream of love, I started falling deeply in love with my Creator. As I began to fall in love with God, the healing process started. I cannot remember exactly when the hurt went away. But, one day it just didn''t hurt anymore. God did it so gently that one day I felt new again. I felt pretty again. I felt loved for the first time in my life.
My life has begin to change. And if I do need, and if I do feel sad. I go to my Man. And He makes everything Ok. What a man, what a man, what a man. Hey I feel another song coming on! "What A Man In Jesus"